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Once again it's been far too long since I've written anything (here anyway), not because there's been nothing to write about but because there's been too much going on. And it's like paperwork--I let all these things build up in my head and I put off writing them down, and then when I finally set aside time for it the task just feels too overwhelming. I think that's a big part of why I'm terrible at staying in touch: when you talk to someone for the first time in weeks it just seems impossible to tell them everything in any way that might make it possible for them to understand your life. Constant upkeep is the only way to do it.

But, things really have been happening. Big, important things and little, silly things, and lots of things that are significant in some minor way but mostly just irrelevant to everything. And this time I'm not going to let all those things fall by the wayside just because I was too busy or too lazy to articulate them as they actually came up. I'm going to go back and address each one, because each one was important at the time, and because I want to learn my lesson so I don't let this happen again. It would really be pretty easy if I would just keep up with it. And it may actually get even easier in just a few weeks . . . I am cutting down on waitressing! Not quitting (yet), because I feel bad and I've only been there for a month, but limiting my availability severely because I got the job I wanted!

It's a full-time job at the string store, my first full-time job ever, and it's just perfect: I get to work in an environment I love, with wonderful people, and get paid and get health insurance and have way more time (to write! and practice!) for myself, and it's interesting! It still hasn't quite sunk in yet that this actually happened for me, but I have a desk! And a title! And business cards! And a key to the company van! And I just can't believe how lucky I was to have found this place at all, let alone to have a full-time job only a month out of college in THIS economy (and to think as recently as December I was sure I'd never get a job or an apartment). And it's still basically customer service, which means plenty of material to write about--I just have to keep up with it. And I will this time! As a little jump-start, something I wrote junior year and just found, and actually kind of like is here. I always really hope for and appreciate comments, but especially with this, something a little more creative (and therefore more personal), I would love some feedback.